Have I truly been Backwards for 33 years??

I see motion as the Ninja does. I see art like Michelangelo. I read poetry as Shakespeare did.. I hear music like a composer and every song is singing to me. I see the Stars as our ancestors did. People keep calling me crazy, a God complex, or schizophrenic. BUT I UNDERSTAND THE MIND as Jung did. IF ANYONE HAS TRULY LOST THEIR EGO, I know u will reach out because u understand. This is not religious tho every religion speaks of it. I AM NOT THE SON OF GOD MERELY A SON OF a MAN . ALL OF OCCULT KNOW THE POWER BEHIND IT. Have I TRULY BEEN BLIND FOR 33 YEARS? I can see how every moment of my life has gotten me to this point here now. How every move was unconsciously pushing me to a certain Destination. While consciously I wasn’t aware. If this knowledge wasn’t benefitting my life I’d say I’m crazy too. Fuck I’d rather be just a jester than be a prophet, cuz people won’t understand. In the words of Buddha.” The second u try to understand it, it all falls apart” So I will sit until I am moved.